We don't always know why people come into out lives. And sometimes we don't realize how special someone is until after they've left. Some people have a powerful hold on us. They make us open our eyes to things we've never thought of, ideas, beliefs and views on the world. We've had two nanny's so far with our 9 month old daughter. The first left us, due to a serious injury, after two months, the second after almost four. It was our second nanny that brightened my day each time she showed up to work. Her faith is a powerful burst of postive energy that surrounds her and made me realize how much I not only missed being connected to God, but how lost I am without Him in my life. I've had many people enter my life who've had special relationships with God. I didn't have the level of understanding that I do now in order to appreciate their love and connection. It's only now that I realize how God has tried to re-enter my life through these people so many times in the past, and I've closed the door on Him. God brought this person into my life at just the right time. She showed an amazing love for my daughter and became not only a wonderful nanny, but a great friend. She starts summer classes next week and her schedule does not match my work schedule, which forced us to look for a new nanny.  We hired her friend, hoping they are much the same, but knowing she's irreplaceable. I hope to continue our friendship and continue on the path that she's led me to. I hope to end up where she is someday. To know God the way she does. To share the love and compassion for others in the same way. To open my heart to others, to forgive, to end the worry and accept faith. I've been sad since she left, and I haven't yet figured out why. If it's that I know that no other nanny could love my daughter the way she did, or if it's that I won't be able to have the great conversations that I had each morning and evening or if it's that I feel I've lost more than a great nanny. It was only a few short months, but she really felt like part of the family and will be missed as such.